SUNSHINE AND RAINBOWS

IT'S BEEN A WHILE BUT A LOT HAS HAPPENED

2010-05-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

Yes, it has been a while since my last post, but a lot has been happeing in these past few months.

Of course, the holidays are always a busy time, and then in February something else happened.

Was not sure I was going to share this, but decided to do so, because I want to give God the glory for what He has done. Had a fluid buildup in my legs and ankles (do not know whether it was from the cancer or just one of those things that happen), but my legs were as big as those of a football tackle and so could barely lift them. Finally ended up in the hospital to have them drained. Was there for six days, but they would not let me come home by myself, so put me in rehab for another two weeks, for which I am very grateful. Because when I came home I was probably in better condition than I had been in a long time, so what the enemy meant for harm, God turned around for my good, and I do give Him all the glory. Had physical and occupational therapy both and they worked on getting me walking and functioning again so I could be on my own. I feel stronger and, praise God, had more therapy here at home for four weeks – twice a week. By the end of this time, I was able to do more than I have been able to do for years, and needless to say, I am thrilled about that, for most of you know I have had trouble with my back and knees for quite a while. Although they still give me some problems, because of the arthritis, not nearly as much as before and I am grateful.

As far as the other is concerned, they also drained six liters out of my abdomen while I was in the hospital, but once again it was light colored, even lighter than last time, so I am believing that there will not be many more. Of course, God’s timing is always right, and when He is ready to manifest my complete healing, that is the time I will rejoice. And I know you will all rejoice with me. Anyway, between the two drainings, they removed over 30 pounds of fluid out of my body. I wanted to lose weight, but guess that was not the best way to do it. Ha! Have to admit that this has been a trying, and a humbling situation, but I have learned so much from it and never again will I fail to take notice of changes in my body. Maybe I could have avoided the hospital visit if I had, and yet, so much good has come out of it.

It was exactly two years ago On May 16th when they first mentioned that dreadful word, and on May 30th told me it was incurable (adinocarcenoma) and gave me three to twelve months to live. Well, here I am two years later, and although His healing has not manifested completely, I believe it will be soon. And I thank so many people for standing in agreement with me on this. because, except for the buildup of fluid in my abdomen, everything else is doing okay. My blood work shows all in the normal range, my vitals are all good, and my system is functioning normally. What a mighty God we have!!!!!

When I tend to get tired, or frustrated, or discouraged, the Lord always reminds me that His grace is sufficient and that He has not given me anything that I cannot bear, especially when I have Him to lift me up and give me His peace. And I know that each and every one of you has to go through trials and tribulations, because His Word says we will, but I also know that He will bring you through just as He is bringing me through.

Last month He gave me a poem called “Precious Promises” (which will be at the end of this message) and I hope it blesses you as it has blessed me.

Of course, the GREATEST thing that has happened recently is that I am now a great-grandmother of a little boy born to my granddaughter and grandson, Angela and Zach. His name is Cooper Alan. He weighed 8 lbs, 5 oz, and was 21 ¾ ‘ long. And he is beautiful. (Yes, I know I’m prejudiced, but he is.) Cathie and Tim took me to Knoxville the 29th of April so we could see him, and hold him. What a thrill that was. Then Barbie came up on the 1st of May and we had a four-generation picture taken. That was exciting, too.

Barbie, me, Angela &Cooper

4 Generations

Another nice thing about that weekend was that my nephew, Larry and his wife, Mary Ellen, drove down from Cincinnati to see us and we had a nice time together, even though it was only for two days. It was so good to see them.

On Sunday morning Barbie and I left to go back to her home in Clarksville. If you remember, that was the weekend the flooding was so bad in west and middle Tennessee. Although we did run into some heavy rain for about 15 minutes, we made it through Nashville and got on the road to Clarksville without any problem, but we found out later that less than two hours after we were on that road, it had been covered with water and closed. Again, how good our God is to protect us and take us through.

Came home last Wednesday evening and went to the doctor’s on Thursday. After she found that everything was virtually the same, she stated that she has never seen anything like this in all her years. She intimated that I should at least be showing signs of deterioration, but I don’t and that is strictly the blessings of our Lord.

Guess this is a bit long, but I hope it has caught you up on the situation and that you can praise the Father for all He is doing in my life – and I know in yours, too.

Love and God’s blessings to every one of you who reads this.

PRECIOUS PROMISES

How precious are the promises
That come from God above
As He showers us with blessings
And pours out His great love

So many precious promises
And we can claim them all
Because He’s called us as His own
And we have heard His call

The promise of salvation
That frees us from our sin
The promise of His Spirit
That comes to dwell within

The promise of protection
That takes away our fear
The promise of His Presence
For He is always near

His promise not to leave us
No matter what we do
His promise of forgiveness
That we might start anew

So many precious promises
That we can claim each day
As we draw closer to Him
And let Him guide our way

Kay Smith Crouch
April 10, 2010

IT'S BEEN A WHILE

2009-11-13T11:44:00.000-08:00

It has been quite a while since I have posted anything, but just have not had the chance – especially since I have been having a lot of problems getting on the Internet lately. But it is time for another report – and for those of you who have written me and did not receive an answer, I apologize.

As to the report itself – went to the Doctor’s yesterday and basically everything is the same. All the vitals and lab work are normal, etc. Still the only symptom is the fluid buildup in my abdomen but I am believing that this next draining will be the last one. Please stand in agreement with me on this.

Did have a couple of other problems, not related, but God is taking care of these, too. PTL!!!

Spent almost three weeks at Barbie and Steve’s and as always had a great time. I will never get tired of the wonderful view from their window. And the trees were changing every day. Also got to meet their new cat, Goldie. She is an outside cat but she is as pretty and gentle as can be. She will look in the window and you can almost hear her saying “come out and play with me”. Ha.

Angela and Zach drove from Knoxville to be with Steve for his birthday, and Ben came up from Murfreesboro for the day. And of course Barbie had made him a cocoanut cake (his favorite).

It was great seeing them all, and for those of you who might not yet know, our dear Angela is going to make Barbie and Steve (and of course Zech’s mom and dad, too) a Grandma and Grandpa. Of course that will make me, and Steve’s parents GREAT- grandparents. Isn’t that exciting? She is due in April and they will be finding out next month whether it is going to be a girl or a boy. Needless to say, the entire family is excited.

Now I am back home and busy filling orders for calendars, spiritual name cards, and other things as well. So although it is challenging, it is still fun and I love to try different things.

Cathie, Tim and I will be joining the family again at Thanksgiving so looking forward to that.

I know so many people are experiencing trials and testings and I pray they are standing on the Word and trusting God as I am – and I hope you are. You know, He did not promise us an easy life, but it certainly is a rewarding life when you live close to Him.

Know everyone is getting ready for Thanksgiving, which is now less than two weeks away, and only four weeks after that we will be celebrating the birth of Jesus. Since I do not go back to the Doctor until January 7th, and don’t know when I will post another blog, I want to be sure and tell you all that I am so grateful for your love and your prayers, and that I pray for a blessed holiday season for you all. To that end I am adding two poems, one for Thanksgiving and one for Christmas. I pray you will be blessed by them – and feel free to share them if you so desire.

KEEP THANKING GOD

Keep thanking God throughout the day
And give to Him your praise
For His eternal presence
And all His loving ways

Remembering the promises
Conveyed throughout His Word
Promises of hope and peace
And that you’ve been secured

Not to deny reality
For challenges there’ll be
But you have His assurance
He’s there to oversee

Yet in the midst of challenges
That come to everyone
You even then should thank Him
For all that He has done

Giving thanks for everything
No matter what takes place
For in every situation
He gives to you His grace

So everyday keep thanking God
That He has chosen you
And that you’ll walk together
Down pathways ever new

Kay Smith Crouch

A PRECIOUS GIFT

God gave to us a precious Gift
Two thousand years ago
When He redeemed us from our sin
And paid our debt in full

He gave to us His only Son
Who came to earth as man
Born of the Virgin Mary
According to God’s plan

Giving up His Deity
And living life man’s way
With trials and temptations
And testings every day

Willing to go through suffering
Through sorrow and through pain
That He would truly comprehend
And counting it all gain

That we might freely come to Him
With confidence and peace
Knowing that He understands
And wisdom He’ll release

Now as you celebrate His birth
Remember all He’s done
And thank our Heavenly Father
For giving us His Son

Kay Smith Crouch

76TH BIRTHDAY – AND COUNTING

2009-08-12T14:48:00.000-07:00

A couple of weeks ago I celebrated my 76th birthday, with praise and thanksgiving for the wonderful Lord I serve. And if you have been a reader of this blog you will know that on my 75th birthday, they did not expect me to be around for this one. But, my God is good and I am still here.

It was May 30th of last year when they gave me three to twelve months to live, but if anything, except for the fluid buildup, I am in better physical condition than I have been in a long time. Have lost some weight and exercise every day, or at least almost every day, and feel so much better. And I’m working on the Devotional Book – and also a new poem tape/CD and hope to complete them soon, at least the latter. (I am only into February for the book.)

The last report I had sent out to all my prayer partners was June 5th, and at that time I had not gone in to have the fluid drained off my abdomen. Each time I have had that done in the past, the fluid was always a dark bloody red with black lines in it (at least that is the way it looked) and they told me it was the cancer cells. Well, on June 10th they took out 5 liters and it was NOT dark red, but a sort of cream color with a yellow tinge. Then I had another 4 liters taken out on July 22nd and it looked brown with a tint of red, but was still not the dark red as in the past. I am not sure what this means, and my doctor did not really address this, except to say that this last time the doctor could have punctured a blood vessel to make it brown. I wanted to ask her to test the fluid, but God told me not to, that His timing was always perfect. So I am just going to be patient and wait for Him.

It does not matter what the doctor says, or even thinks, for I know I am healed and it is just a matter of time before it is manifested and I have proof for the skeptics. I had told the doctor that there were a lot of people praying for me and standing with me for a miracle, and as I have not developed any more symptoms, and everything is in the normal range, and my vital signs good, she is aware that God has to be working in me. She cannot understand, but she is glad for me and I do not have to go back until the 17th of September. I would like to believe that there will not be any more fluid buildup, but even if there is, I know now it is just a matter of time before my healing manifests and the doctor will release me – with the proof that there are no more cancer cells in me.

We are so blessed to know what an awesome God we have, and how Jesus is always with us to guide us and encourage us no matter what we face as we learn to:

HOLD GOD’S HAND

Hold God’s hand and trust in Him
Throughout both day and night
Being conscious of His presence
And walking in His Light

Casting all your cares on Him
Because He cares for you
Turning not away from Him
But facing each day new

Just let His love surround you
And wash away your tears
For His continued presence
Will overcome your fears

Depending on Him daily
To meet your every need
As you seek Him constantly
And His commandments heed

Spending time alone with Him
That you might know His will
Then to be obedient
That His plans you fulfill

For as you keep your hand in His
Responding to His love
You will always be assured
It’s you He’s thinking of

Kay Smith Crouch
June 23, 2009

THE FOURTH OF JULY

2009-07-03T14:48:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the 4th of July, the 233rd birthday of our beloved United States of America. Will it be a special day for you? I hope so, because it is the day when we can truly remember, and appreciate, our many freedoms.
Over the years, although most citizens claim to be patriotic, patriotism is not as prevalent as it used to be. Yes, you still see those who salute our flag when the Star Spangles Banner is played and our flag displayed, but not like it was when I was growing up. Even as children we learned to salute our flag and even display it proudly, and correctly.
For the most part, the people of this Country are loyal patriotic Americans. They are proud of our Nation and everything it stands for. But with the pace of today’s living being so fast,
people just don’t take the time to say or do anything to express these feelings. This is a shame, because the rest of the world hears mainly the loudmouths and the reports of corruption, etc. They do not remember that we have our choice of religions, or vocations, or leisure activities, and that we can vote the way we believe. Yet, when they hear all this other negative stuff, what do they have to really compare with their way of life and ours? To some, it may seem like a choice between the “frying pan” and the “fire”. Still, there are many who yearn to come here to live. They know there is great opportunity for those willing to work and take a chance. They know that they can do what they want to do, live where they want to live, go where they want to go, speak when they want to speak, and enjoy all the freedoms that we Americans many times take for granted because they are as familiar to us as breathing.
Each war gave vent to patriotic songs. From “Yankee Doodle Dandy” in the Revolutionary War; to “Over There” and “My Buddy” in World War I; to “Praise the Lord and Pass the Ammunition” and “America, I Love You” in World War II. And of course, one we still do sing today and that is “God Bless America”. During these first wars, Americans sang their way to freedom and peace. Since that time, there have been wars in Korea, in Vietnam, and in the Middle East, all unpopular, and with no songs really associated with any of them. Although there have been some new songs written over the years, such as “I’m Proud to be an American”, there has been no real emphasis that they applied to any of the later wars.
Most Americans like to sing, and now, when the entire world is in such turmoil, it might be a good time to start reviving some of the patriotic songs, Not only revive them, but sing them loud enough for all the world to hear. Remind them that we live in a free land and that, even with all its faults, America is neither the “frying pan”, nor the “fire”, but a well-seasoned pot roast.
I guess you can tell that I love patriotism and one of my fondest memories is the first time I ever stood retreat as a member of the US Women’s Air Force. In full dress uniform, the bugle sounding, and our beautiful flag slowly descending, I was never more proud that I was an American and was serving this great Nation. And, as my family can all verify, there is still nothing that compares with seeing Old Glory waving, especially all the large ones. And like most of you, hopefully all of you, I pray for God to continuing to bless America and all it stands for.

ANOTHER GOOD REPORT – FATHER’S DAY

2009-06-21T13:24:00.000-07:00

Know it has been a while since I have written, but because of circumstances,just have not had the time to write as I would have liked to.

If you are familiar with my blog, you may remember that it a little over a year ago I was diagnosed with adenocarcinoma, a rare form of cancer that is incurable, and given 3 to 12 months to live. Well, PTL, I am now in my 13th month and, except for the fluid, everything else about me is fine. When I went to the Doctor on june 5th she said my lungs were clear, my heart sounded strong, my vitals are all good, the lab report shows that everything is in the normal range, and my body is otherwise functioning the way it is supposed to. Then, on June 10th, I had more fluid drained out of my abdomen and it was NOT the dark bloody red it had always been in the past, but a sort of cream color with a tinge of yellow in it (at least that is what it looked like to me and the girls). I have not talked to the Doctor (not scheduled to go back until July 30th) but I believe that this was definitely a breakthrough in God’s healing process. I have now asked all my friends and family that are prying for me to change their prayers from just being healed to praying for the MANIFESTATION AND PROOF of my healing so that I might testify of God’s great glory.

Next Sunday is Father’s Day and I am so grateful that I had not only a wonderful earthly Father, but that I have and know my Heavenly Father who is even more wonderful. And I am grateful that Angela and Ben have a wonderful earthly Father and that they also know and love their Heavenly Fahter. What a blessing to know that all my family loves the Lord and are serving Him in what He has called them to do.

I think back to when I was growing up and what a great family we had. There were just Mom and Dad, my brother Warren, and me, but we always enjoyed doing things together. We used to go on picnics and for automobile rides, and things like that. And when we went up to visit my aunt and uncle in Milwaukee, we had a lot of fun, too. Of course, I was the youngest (my brother was almost 8 years older than mt – and my cousins 14 to 20 years older) so as the cousins all got married and they became a big family, when we had picnics, etc., there were at least 50 or more that came together. Sometimes I wish we could all go back to those days, and then again, I am glad we can’t. Guess the best thing to do is to take one day at a time and let our Lord lead us the way He would have us go.

However, we do have our plans and next Monday, the 22nd, Barbie is coming after me and I am going back and spend a week with she and Steve. That will be nice. I always enjoy being up there and since school is out, will have more time to be with Barbie than usual, and that will be nice.

Again I thank God that He is my Heavenly Father and that nothing is impossible for Him. I pray you all know Him, too.

MOTHERS DAY

2009-05-13T09:55:00.001-07:00

Whether you are a mother or a child, Mother's Day is very special. At least it is in my family. I have been blessed with two beautiful daughters (Cathie and Barbie) two great sons-in-law (Tim and Steve, and two wonderful grandchildren (Angela and Ben)- except now there are three because a grandson-in-law (Zach)was added in 2006. Although Angela and Zach could not make it home, and Ben was there for just a few hours, the rest of us had a great weekend.

Cathie and Tim brought me up on Friday and stayed the weekend. On Saturday the four of them went hiking on the property, climbing hills, fording streams, and having a great time together. They were out for about three hours and were really tired, but exhilarated, when they returned. That night Steve fixed deer steak for supper. He knew it was my favorite and it was a wonderful meal.

On Sunday, Mother's Day, we all went to church and it was nice to have a daughter on each side of me and all be together. After church Steve took us on a scenic tour and then came home to grill steaks. They were delicious and we all enjoyed them. Not too long after that, Cathie and Tim had to head back to Memphis, but I will be staying until the 27th. It's such a joy to be with Barbie and Steve and to enjoy their beautiful home and all the great scenery. It is so restful to be able to just sit and praise God for His artistry and His great love.

Although I did bring some projects to work on (I am going to do another Poem Tape and CD, and a couple of poem booklets, but a lot of the time I plan to read and just enjoy the peace and quiet here.

It seems that the Lord always gives me at least one new poem when i am here, but yesterday, He gave me four, but I am only going to share one with you. It is entitled "Buried Treasure" and it is so true that we all have treasure buried in us, but we do need to dig it out ourselves.

Hope you enjoy the poem - that you had a wonderful Mother's Day - and that you will do some digging into the Word.

BURIED TREASURE

Dig up the buried treasure
That dwells inside of you
Then stepping out in confidence
To do what you can do

Knowing that the God in you
Is greater than the foe
And when you search the Scriptures
He’ll help you learn and grow

That you might know the words to speak
And just what you should do
To overcome the enemy
Each time he comes at you

For God will give you wisdom
No matter what you face
If you will take your cares to Him
And His Words you embrace

You will always find an answer
But you must dig it out
Then act on it in confidence
Not having any doubt

For this treasure that’s within you
It’s all you’ll ever need
Because it is the Word of God
And it has been decreed

Kay Smith Crouch
May 12, 2009

MOTHERS DAY

2009-05-13T09:55:00.000-07:00

REPORT TIME – SPRING - EASTER

2009-03-28T13:00:00.000-07:00

Time for another report and I am glad to say that everything is about the same as last time. Know that every time I go in to see the Doctor she is expecting some signs of deterioration, but, PTL, there is still no change. All my vital signs are good, the lab report shows everything in the normal range, and, except for the fluid, everything is functioning normally. What a blessing! I know it is because of the prayers and love of all my family and friends who are standing with me..

Just spent a week at my daughter’s home in Clarksville, TN. It was a busy week, but I still had time to gaze out of their big picture window and enjoy the view. The trees were starting to bud and grew bigger and greener every day. And, yes, I saw four deer and a big turkey. As always, it reminded me of how wonderful our Creator is and what beauty He put into our lives to enjoy. Also got to go to the Bunco Meeting where I finally met more of the group who had been sending cards and praying for me this past year. What a blessing to get to know them and to be able to put names and faces together. They are all precious ladies and I enjoyed my time with them.

Here in Memphis, the fruit trees are blossoming and there is forsythia and buttercups and even tulips to enjoy. I truly love Spring, not only for the beautiful colors, but also because it is the time of new life and hope. Although I also love the colors in the Fall, Springtime is my favorite time of the year.

I am so grateful for all the support and prayers during this time. As you can imagine, it has not been an easy time, and as the months go by and it gets closer to the end date of her prognosis (3 to 12 months), the enemy is really hitting full force. BUT, because of your prayers and the fact that you are all standing in faith with me, it is also closer to the time of my victory!!!!!!! My confession every day is “I will live and not die, and be a testimony for the glory of God”! This is the end of the 10th month and I am reminded daily that I am not to look at circumstances, or to go by what I see or hear or feel. How many times He has said that in the poems He has given me, but sometimes it is hard to remember and I catch myself having to ask His forgiveness when I forget.

As we draw closer to Easter, I remember how Jesus was so willing to suffer and give His life for us, and what I am going through is nothing compared to what He had to. And the same for whatever you are going through, too. And THROUGH is the key word, because He has promised to bring us through.

THROUGH

In trials and tribulations
The Lord will see you through
For He has promised in His Word
To always be with you

Holding you by your right hand
To guide your steps each day
Keeping you upon the path
That you not go astray

But even if you stumble
He’ll pick you up again
Setting you back on the track
According to His plan

You don’t have to be perfect
In thought and word and deed
Or to focus on performance
To have Him meet your need

You only need to trust Him
And give to Him your praise
For He is ever faithful
To lead you through your days

His love is unconditional
And always shines on you
Regardless of your actions
He’ll always take you through

Kay Smith Crouch

I pray you all have a wonderful and blessed Easter season, and that you will remember not only what Jesus did for us, but also remember what the Father had to go through watching Him suffer and die. What a wonderful God we serve. To think they would do this for us so that we might live eternally with Him. Hope you enjoy this poem that God just gave me this week about the “Man of Sorrows”.

MAN OF SORROWS

He was a Man of Sorrows
Who died upon that cross
Willing to endure ‘til death
And counting it not loss

Because He knew His Father’s plan
To draw men back to Him
Giving them a chance at life
And not a future grim

Willing to be sacrificed
To pay the debt we owe
That we clothed in righteousness
And washed as white as snow

For when He died upon that cross
A mortal man was He
Yet pure and clean and free from sin
Fulfilling destiny

From birth to resurrection
He lived here on this earth
Going from the manger to the cross
To give us second birth

Giving up His life for ours
God’s wrath to satisfy
That we might walk with Him again
And on Him to rely

Kay Smith Crouch
March 24, 2009

Love and God’s blessings to each and every one who reads this.

GEORGE AND THE CHERRY TREE

2009-02-23T12:05:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was George Washington’s birthday, and if we think about him, we picture him as the “Father of our Country”, our first President of these great United States. And just about everyone has heard the story of George and the cherry tree. There probably isn’t a child alive who hasn’t been told about this episode at least once. But I wonder how many have remembered it!

Apparently not many, or if they did, they just have not paid any attention to it at all. This is quite evident as we review the things told us by our co-workers, by sales people, by others we meet in the course of everyday living, and by our representatives in local, state, and national government, and even sometimes by our own family and friends. Is this right? Should a friend tell us we look good if we don’t; or our family tells us it’s okay to do something when it isn’t; or a salesperson tells us that the suit or dress makes us look good when it really doesn’t?

The answer to some of these questions is quite obvious. The answer to some of them depends upon your point of view. There are those who believe that “honesty is the best policy” no matter what, while others may believe this except when being honest would be harmful to someone. Of course, there are some who believe honesty is a matter of convenience and that the only thing wrong with lying is the fact that later it is often hard to keep their stories straight. And there are those who are pathological liars because they just cannot help it. Is there a difference between a lie and a fib? Is there such a thing as a “little white lie”? This is strictly between you and your conscious. There are many ways you can look upon the subject of lying, and what you do and what you say will ultimately reflect your beliefs.

One example of truth being the best policy is when a doctor tells a patient they have an incurable disease and gives them a prognosis of how much longer they have to live. It may seem harsh but it also prepares the patient to face reality. As many of you know, this happened to me last year, and it has caused me to look at life a little differently. The one good thing about it is that I have lots of family and friends who are standing in faith with me to be completely healed. Was the doctor wrong? With the information she had and looking at things from her perspective, she believed she was telling the truth. Yet it has been interesting to see that, except for the fluid buildup in my abdomen and lung (which get drained every so often), every time I go in my vital signs are all good and the lab reports show everything in the normal range. The truth does not always depend upon what man sees and knows, but what God has planned for each individual. Yes, there will be a time when I will go Home to Heaven, but it is in His timing, not mine – or the doctor’s.

I know that since this has happened, I really appreciate the beauty of the sky and the trees, and all the other beautiful artistry God has provided for us. I thank Him for the wonderful family and all the great prayer warriors He has given me to help me through this time. And I treasure the times when we can be together. Not that I did not always appreciate them and love them, but it is that I have learned not to take them – or anything else – for granted. These are gifts from our Heavenly Father and I treasure them highly.

I pray that as you read this, you will be blessed as you remember all the precious gifts of family and friends He has given to you.

2009-02-14T15:55:00.000-08:00

LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ‘ROUND

There is an old saying and a popular song that “Love Makes the World Go ‘Round” and today this old world should really be spinning as that cute little cherub Dan Cupid shoots off a lot of love arrows in celebration of Valentine’s Day.

Just think of all the valentines that have been made or purchased this week, not to mention all the flowers, candy, and other types of gifts, including some diamond rings. Although we express our love on various occasions during the year, this is the holiday that is especially devoted to romance and affection. Everyone likes to be loved, whether it is a simple expression of friendship, or the courtship of that special one in your life.

I once wrote a column about how this holiday came into being and I happened to come across it, so thought you might enjoy knowing about it. Of course we know that it comes on the feast day of that Christian martyr, St. Valentine, but did you know there were at least two St. Valentines, and possibly more? Or that the customs we celebrate have nothing to do with the lives of these saints? It is generally believed to have come from an ancient Roman festival called Lupercalia, which took place on the 15th of February. This festival, honoring Juno, the Roman goddess of women and marriage, and Pan, the God of nature, was celebrated as a lover’s festival for young women and men who chose their festival partners by drawing names by chance. The partners would then exchange gifts as a sign of affection and many times such partnerships ended in courtship and marriage.

Wanting to give Christian meaning to what he considered a pagan festival, Pope Gelasius changed it to St. Valentine’s Day in 496, but the sentimental meaning of the old festival still remains. The holiday did not become popular in this country until the mid-1880’s, although the oldest valentines found in America date back to the early 1700’s.

Down through the years there have been many beliefs and customs in connection with this day, mostly concerned with romance or the choice of a mate. One of the oldest beliefs is that birds choose their mates on this date. There was also an old superstition that it was bad luck to bring snowdrop flowers into the house of an unmarried girl before Valentine’s Day if the girl hoped to get married that year. In some places an unmarried girl would strike her forehead with a folded rose petal. If the petal cracked, she knew that her valentine loved her.

Although these things might be interesting, one thing is for sure, Valentine’s Day is a day for children and lovers and no matter what customs or beliefs you might have, it is a fun day with lots of love and affection being spread around.

Wouldn’t it be nice if all this love and affection could be spread around every day?

Hope this Valentine’s Day has been special for you and that you celebrated it with those you love. I did!

WHAT HAPPENED TO JANUARY?

2009-02-10T12:38:00.000-08:00

What happened to January? Here I was at the first of the month paying bills and looking forward to the rest of the bowl games, etc., and all of a sudden it is February and I am back to paying bills. Time really has a way of slipping by fast and I can’t help but think that God is speeding things up for the Saint’s sake. And even though all you hear about is the recession and the hard times, it is still nice to know that God is in control and if you put your trust in Him, you will come out okay. That does not mean that you are exempt from the world and all its challenges, but it does mean that He will see you through whatever happens.

Those of you who have read my blog for a while know that last year I was given a prognosis of having three to twelve months more to live. Now I am in the ninth month of that time period and except for fluid in my abdomen and my lungs, there are not any other signs of deterioration that we can tell.

On December 31st I had about 2 ½ liters of fluid drained from my abdomen (before this it was usually 4 to 5 liters about every 8 weeks) and on January 29th had 4 liters drained from my left lung. Was scheduled to have the other lung drained the next day, but PTL, they said there was hardly any fluid in my right lung so did not have to go back the next day. Then, on Thursday, Feb 5th, went to see the Doctor. Once again everything looked and sounded good and do not have to back until March 26th.

As I said before, I am now in my ninth month since the initial prognosis and I know that it is the love and prayers of my family and friends that have been sustaining me during this time. And I know God is working in me to heal me completely. To Him be all the glory and honor.

I cannot tell you it has been easy, but again knowing they are all there for me, and that I do not have to fight this alone has made such a difference. They may never know how much, but God does, and He will bless them for it. I know I am not the only one who is facing battles and my love and prayers go out to them all every day, and even though I do not know any specifics, God does, and I trust He is working in their lives just as He is in mine. I do not think I could have come this far without them for there were times when I did want to give up, but just knowing they were all there for me kept me going and I cannot help but remember what the Word says about the prayers of a righteous man availing much. So I praise Him for His Word – and for bringing them all into my life.

Last year I was given a picture of Jesus holding the Bible in His hand and extending it out toward His people and every time I see it I am reminded that He has given us His Word that we might know how to live the abundant life He has for us. Everything that you would ever need to know is contained in it. He gives us instructions, He answers all our questions, and so much more. It is a constant source of information, of comfort, of exhortation, of praise, and a reminder of all His promises. Yes, we have problems and go through trials and tribulations, but He is always there to take us THROUGH them. But it is up to you whether you will let Him or not. He does not force you to do anything you do not want to do, but He does give you the opportunity to accept Him and when you do, He is always there for you. He will love you and guide you and take you by the hand that you will never be alone.

I pray that each and every one of you who reads this will know Him and follow Him.

FOLLOW THE KING

When you learn to follow the King
How truly blessed you’ll be
For He will take you by the hand
And guide you constantly

But you must listen to His voice
And willingly obey
To receive the many blessings
That He wants to convey

The blessing of His presence
Wherever you may go
The blessing of His wisdom
To help you learn and grow

That you might walk in confidence
Whatever He might ask
Because He’s well equipped you
To handle any task

Wherever He might lead you
His presence you will know
Whether on a mountaintop
Or valley deep below

Knowing as you follow Him
He’ll keep you in His care
For you’ve surrendered to Him
And now you are His heir

Kay Smith Crouch

BLESSINGS

2008-12-21T10:49:00.000-08:00

What a wonderful God we have and I praise Him for all He has done, all He is doing, and all that He is going to do, not only for me, for all my family, too.

Went to the Doctor on Thursday and there are still no signs of deterioration. My vitals are all good; my lungs clear, my heart sounds good - and my blood cells both red and white are in the normal range. My daughter has a nurse friend who told her that with cancer the white blood count is always low - so this seems like a good sign. I know I am healed, but am waiting patiently for the Lord to reveal it in such a way that I can give Him all the glory. Amen? Amen!!!

I also told the doctor about what my first words were when they first mentioned cancer, (in case you forgot – it was “My God is bigger than any cancer.”) and said that it would not be long until she would know that I was free of cancer because God was healing me. I love her reply. She said that nothing would make her happier than for that to happen. Isn’t that great. So many doctors would scoff, but she didn’t and that made us all feel better.

Do not have to go back to the Doctor until February 5th (8 weeks) and that is nice, too. Barbie always drives in from Clarksville and both she and Cathie go with me. Then we go out to lunch and perhaps to Walmart, but we always enjoy being together. After this visit we went and picked up a couple of gifts that Cathie had signed us up for the weekend before. I had won a $50 gift certificate at a salon and I gave it to the girls so they went in and picked out some stuff and I was so blessed to be able to do that since they are always giving to me and it was nice to give to them. Then Cathie had won a “Doggie Basket” and was it ever nice. It was like a small wicker laundry basket filled with all sorts of goodies, leashes, feeding dish, etc. It was really nice but since she and Tim have cats, she gave it to Barbie and Steve for the new dog they will be getting next year. She and Steve lost their dog, Pepper, last year after 14 years so it was sort of a mixed blessing. But there was also a $25 gift certificate in the basket, which Barbie gave back to Cathie to use for their cats. So everyone was blessed.

Then we went to lunch but after that Cathie had to go and prepare for Saturday’s Open House at the Antiques Mall where she has a booth, so Barbie and I went home and got out the few Christmas decorations I had. After we had trimmed the small tree and put out a few other things I had, she decided that I needed more, so Friday morning we went to Walmart and had a really great time picking out decorations. Then we came back home and decided where they should all go. Of course, the wreath for the outside of the door was obvious, but then we found the right spot for everything else and it really looks nice. Then she helped me find boxes for all my gifts and helped me wrap them. Wasn’t that nice? It sure helped me. Of course, I still had to wrap hers and some for my friends, but that was no big deal and I finished them up by Saturday night.

Because of work schedules, we will not all be able to get together on Christmas Day, but we will celebrate the following Monday with every one there. And being together is the main thing, regardless of the actual date.

Now as we celebrate this Christmas season, I pray that each and every one of you will have a blessed Christmas and that 2009 will be your best year ever. Here is a Christmas poem I want to share with you. Hope it blesses you and please feel free to copy and share it is you so desire.

BIRTHDAY OF GOD’S SON

As we celebrate the birthday
Of God’s Beloved Son
We must praise and thank Him
For all that He has done

For He gave up His deity
To be a mortal man
As He stepped across the threshold
To fulfill His Father’s plan

Willingly He clothed Himself
In frail humanity
So He could pay the debt we owe
That we might be set free

Coming as a tiny babe
In such a humble way
Born in a lowly stable
And sleeping on the hay

So willing to be willing
No matter what the cost
Fulfilling His commission
To seek and save the lost

So in the midst of Christmas joys
Of merriment and fun
Take time to thank the Father
For giving us His Son

Kay Smith Crouch

Love and God's blessings to all of you all.

THANKSGIVING BLESSINGS

2008-12-03T12:32:00.000-08:00

What a wonderful Thanksgiving I had with my wonderful family. We were all there and we probably ate more than we should have, but it was all SO GOOD.

Also received an early Christmas present when Barbie took all the girls (Cathie, Angela and me) to see the Radio City Rockettes at the Grand Old Opry House in Nashville on Friday. It was a spectacular performance, but the final scene when they portrayed the Nativity and sang with it, was the very best part of the program. When they started singing the “Halleluiah Chorus” almost everyone stood and even joined in. It was a most emotional moment and we all went out with a glad feeling because we all know the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Of course all good things come to an end, and on Saturday, after sharing a wonderful breakfast, Cathie, Tim and I headed home for Memphis. And as much as I enjoyed spending 10 days there, it was good to get home, too.

Now I am working on Christmas projects, including a Christmas letter and cards, plus getting gifts together for wrapping, etc. At this time of the year there is never a dull moment.

When I think of all the blessings I have received, not only over Thanksgiving, but also throughout the entire year, I am so very thankful. I am thankful for the wonderful family God gave me, for the wonderful friends, and most of all that He has chosen us to be part of His family.

Hope you had as wonderful a Thanksgiving as I did.

THANKSGIVING BLESSINGS

2008-11-25T12:48:00.000-08:00

Only two more days until Thanksgiving and I will be with my children and grandchildren as we celebrate this wonderful holiday together in Clarksville. It is a time when we remember all the things we have to be thankful about, and there are so many, but will only share a few.

First of all, I am so very thankful for the wonderful family I have, with two super daughters; two great sons-in-laws (that I call sons); two fabulous grandchildren that I was fortunate to see grow up into such wonderful adults; and a neat grandson-in law (which I call grandson). I know that legally they are “in-laws” but in my heart they ALL belong to me and I am grateful that God brought them into my family.

And then I am thankful for the wonderful Spiritual family He has given me. I have brothers and sisters all over the US, as well as in Ireland, England, India, Peru, Chile, and Australia that I hold dear to my heart. And even though we may not have seen one another for a while, it is nice to know that we have a relationship that will never end.

Of course I am thankful that I, and my family, live here in America where we enjoy the freedoms we do. I’m not saying our country is perfect, but it is ours and even more important, it is God’s.

My dad, my brother, two cousins, and myself are all veterans and I thank God that those who saw foreign action came home safely. Now have a great-nephew who is serving in the Navy. When I think of him, and all the other husbands, fathers, sons, and brothers who are serving our country, I am grateful for their sacrifices.

Received an e-mail this morning that contained a good idea and want to pass it along to any of you who might be interested in doing this.

When doing your Christmas cards this year, take one card and send it to this address. If everyone sends one card, think of how many cards these
wonderful special people who have sacrificed so much would get.

Mail to:
A Recovering American Soldier
c/o Walter Reed Army Medical Center
6900 Georgia Avenue,NW
Washington,D.C. 20307-5001

Isn’t that a wonderful idea? I think it is and intend to send at least one, if not more. Hope each one who reads this will do the same. Feel it is the least we can do for those who gave so much for us. Don’t you?

It is my prayer that each of you have a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving, and I leave you with the following poem. Please feel free to share it with your family and friends if you so desire.

THANK YOU, HEAVENLY FATHER

Thank You Heavenly Father
For every thing you do
For every thing You give us
For letting us love You

You’ve given us so very much
We don’t know where to start
Our lives – our very beings
Your love within our heart

The wisdom of Your Holy Word
Which opened up the door
To the promise of salvation
And life forevermore

The Son You gave so freely
The Life, the Truth, the Way
The Spirit that’s within us
Who guides our steps each day

And even when we miss the mark
You always understand
Reaching out to keep us
In the hollow of Your hand

So thank You, Lord, for everything
And may we always be
Ready and willing to serve you
Throughout eternity

Kay Smith Crouch

IT HAS BEEN A WHILE

2008-11-05T00:14:00.000-08:00

Yes, it has been a while since I have been on, but there has been a lot going on since then.

On October 5th Barbie and Steve picked me up and took me back home with them. God has blessed them with a beautiful home surrounded by lots and lots of trees and it is so beautiful there. They live in Southside, TN (south of Clarksville) and although it is a half hour drive into town, they love it – and so do I.

I was there for 3 ½ weeks and was treated like a queen. They are so good to me and I always enjoy being up there. It was great, too, that Barbie had fall break the week of the 13th, and Ben had two day break from college, so he was home for a couple of days, too. He had to go back on Tuesday, though, but it was fun having him around. He is so talented. Plays the guitar, composes music, works with the youth at his church in Murfreesboro, and is going to college as well.

On the 16th, Barbie and I drove to Knoxville to see my granddaughter, Angela and her husband, Zach. I had never seen their condo and they really have it fixed up nice. Plus I got to enjoy their dog, Jere, and their new kitten, Pickles. They are both affectionate and love to play, especially with each other. They were such fun to watch. The next day Barbie, Angela and I drove to Gatlinburg and Pigeon Forge to the Great Smoky Mountains. Although there was a misty rain, it was still beautiful and I enjoyed it very much. The next morning Zach took us all around Knoxville to view the college, where Angela used to live while she was getting her Master’s Degree there, and also the park where they got engaged. Topped it off with eating Krispy Kreme doughnuts as we parked by the Tennessee River. I was really surprised at that, because I know we cross the Tennessee on the way to Clarksville and did not know that it meandered the way it does. Steve came that afternoon and while they went to the football game, I stayed at home and had fun with Jere and Pickles. Then on Sunday, after church and a great meal, we had to say goodbye to Angela and Zach and drive back home. Needless to say, it was a great trip and I enjoyed it very much.

The following week Steve was on vacation, but I did not see much of him because he went out hunting early every morning and again in the late afternoon, and with a bow and arrow. He killed a deer the very first morning. I was glad of that because I really enjoy the deer steak he fixes and would hate to have them run out. Ha! But we still had time to fellowship and that was nice, too. He has a good sense of humor and yet we shared other things as well. And of course Barbie was always with us in the evenings and it was just nice being together.

I especially enjoyed looking out their big picture window and enjoying the beautiful trees they have. There are maples, oaks, pines, dogwoods, and more. You can imagine how beautiful they are during this fall season and could not help but think about how awesome our God is. He truly is a Master Painter and I never cease to be amazed at His great artistry. When you think of ALL the colors He has given us, plus so many shades of each color, you cannot help but praise Him. Plus sometimes there were deer and turkeys that came to the edge of the trees, and one day a big buck came across the lawn close to the back deck.

But finally, on the 29th, Barbie brought me back home again because I had a doctor’s appointment on the 30th. Really enjoyed being up there so long, but still I could hardly wait to see Cathie and Tim. It was so good to be with them, too, and Saturday they came over and watched the Ole Miss – Auburn game with me and we all enjoyed being together again.

Although I went to the Doctor last Thursday, she scheduled to have my abdomen drained on Monday (yesterday), so thought I would wait to see how that went before I wrote this blog. Except for the fluid in my abdomen and a slight sinus infection, I am doing great. Each time I go she expects to see some sign of deterioration, but PTL, she finds nothing else. The two previous times they drained my abdomen they took out 5 liters? Well, this time there were only 2 ½ liters and although it was still red, it was not as dark as the other two times. so think that is encouraging. Guess time will tell.

It has been over five months now since the doctor gave me her prognosis, and except for problems with my back and knees (and the fluid in the abdomen) still feel great. I know God is healing me and I also know that all the prayers so many people have prayed for me have made a difference. There is no way to express my thanks for all those who have prayed for me, and I know there are some that did not even know me. What a blessing!

I pray you all have a blessed Thanksgiving, and here is a beautiful poem God gave me. I hope it blesses you as much as it did me.

BE AT PEACE

Do not doubt but be at peace
Despite the things you face
Knowing Jesus holds your hand
And gives to you His grace

For His grace is sufficient
And it will take you through
Every kind of circumstance
That ever comes to you

Because whatever He allows
Is surely for your good
And He will stand beside you
Just as He said He would

Shaping you and molding you
That you be made His way
For He’s the Master Potter
And you are but the clay

Then as you yield to Him
How beautiful you’ll be
Made unique in every way
To live your destiny

So be content no matter what
Let anxious moments cease
Realizing all is well
And you can be at peace

Kay Smith Crouch
September 28, 2008

CONTENTMENT

2008-09-22T15:05:00.000-07:00

I think of all the lessons I have learned over my life and then wonder why I forget what I have learned from them. One of the things I have learned is to be content whatever the situation, and for the most part I try to be, but there are always those times when it is hard. I guess one of the hardest times was when I was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer and given a prognosis of only living for another three to twelve months. But then I am reminded that the first words out of my mouth when they first mentioned that dreaded word, was ”My God is greater than any cancer”! That is why I can stand in faith believing that God is taking away the cancer cells ant that I will be healed and then be able to testify of His goodness and give Him the glory He deserves.

I am also reminded of the words Paul spoke in Philippians 4:11, “ Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” And in verses 12 and 13, “I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.”

What a wonderful reminder this is and I try to apply it every day, and for the most part I do remember. But on the days when life gets me down, I sometimes do forget. But then I also think of how I have been so blessed with such a wonderful family and such wonderful friends, brothers and sisters in the Lord, who love me and show their love in many ways. So how could I not be content when I remember all this. In fact, I was meditating on this the other day when the Lord gave me two poems that I would like to share with you.

CONTENT

In every situation
Just learn to be content
Knowing God is in control
And orders each event

It may be just to test you
To see you’ll react
Or maybe just to show you
That nothing you have lacked

For He is more than able
To furnish every need
But you must learn to trust Him
And let your heart be freed

Freed to fellowship with Him
And walk with Him each day
As you draw closer to Him
And He shows you His way

Listening for instructions
On what He’d have you do
And then to be obedient
And always follow through

And even during hard times
He always is right there
That you might know contentment
For you are in His care

Kay Smith Crouch

FEAR THOU NOT

“Fear thou not, for I am with you”
Thus says the Lord your God
He will strengthen you and help you
Along the paths you trod

Guiding and protecting you
Throughout both day and night
For His eyes are upon you
You’re precious in His sight

Giving you abundant life
Now and eternally
Because you choose to walk with Him
And you have been set free

Free to follow His commands
As He leads you each day
By listening and obeying
And living life His way

Though there’ll be tests and trials
Throughout your earthly life
Since He is always with you
You’ll weather every strife

For greater is He in you
And He will always say
“Fear thou not, My precious one
You’re in My heart to stay”

Kay Smith Crouch

I pray that one of both of these poems will bless you.

ANOTHER GOOD REPORT

2008-09-15T19:23:00.000-07:00

It has been about six weeks since I last wrote about what was going on with me physically, and now it is time for another report. Last Tuesday morning I had another 5 liters of fluid drained out of my abdomen (another 12 pounds, too) and it made me feel so much more comfortable. You can imagine all the pressure it put on my other organs, etc.

Then on Thursday went to the Doctor, and I’m glad to report that, other than the fluid buildup, everything was great. My vital signs were all okay, my lungs are clear, and she was very pleased – and surprised. Do not have to go back until Oct 30th – that’s 7 weeks. Isn’t that great?

Have to tell you, too, that one of my friends told me that God showed her that when they drained the fluid out, they were also taking the cancer cells out. And she did not know anything about my going to have the fluid drained on Tuesday. How is that for more confirmation? Don’t know how many more times that fluid will have to be drained, if any, but it is a comforting and encouraging word.

My Pastor often told us that “the truth is we walk in divine health, but the fact is that sometimes we have symptoms”. Guess we all need to remember that sometimes since everyone goes through times of having symptoms at one time or another. It is nice to know, though, that our God is in control and that He promises to always take us THROUGH these trials as He works in us to bring about His plans and purpose for our lives, even though we do not always understand.

It might be a while before the proof of this third miracle comes about – but just knowing that my family and so many of my friends are praying for me is such a comfort. And there are even friends of my daughter who have bit even met me that send me cards and loving messages. What a blessing that is.

God is so good and I give Him honor and glory for all He is doing in my life, and in the lives of my family and friends.

To finish, here is a poem the Lord gave to me that is a comfort to me, to my family, and I hope a comfort to every one who reads it.

BECAUSE YOU KNOW

Because you know your Saviour lives
You need not be afraid
For Jesus holds you in His hand
And your debt He has paid

That you not fear the future
But know that every day
He is your constant companion
And He will guide your way

For when you’re walking with Him
And listening to His voice
You will know His peace and love
And your heart will rejoice

He’ll give you every thing you need
To make it through each day
Living one day at a time
As He leads you His way

And even when the trials come
You know He’ll see you through
No matter what you’re facing
His grace He’ll give to you

As you surrender daily
That His plans you fulfill
Because you know He loves you
And that He always will

Kay Smith Crouch

BLESSINGS

2008-08-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

BLESSINGS

I have two daughters and they are both so very special. When I have the chance to spend time with them I enjoy them all the more. They both have a way of making me feel special and are so great about helping me and taking care of me.

Cathie and her husband, Tim, live here in Memphis and they are always helping me and bringing me things such as groceries or sandwiches – or sometimes just themselves. We often watch movies or sports events together and it is always nice having them here with me. Tim is an expert on the computer and fixing things and I don't know what I would do without either of them.

Barbie and her husband, Steve, live in Southside (outside of Clarksville), TN and it is about a 3-½ hour drive from here. She tries to come about every three weeks or so and she takes me out to eat and to shop at Wal-Mart. Then we often play cards or watch TV together. Steve does not get to come very often because of his job, but I know his love always comes with Barbie and that is special to me.

I have a Bible Study/Share and Care every Wednesday morning and Cathie often comes over and makes sure everything is looking nice. Last Wednesday morning she brought coffee, a chicken biscuit, and cinnamon rolls and we had a time of just sharing and fellowshipping before she did some cleaning Then Barbie drove in from Clarksville on Thursday and we went to eat at Perkins and then shopped at Wal-Mart. That evening Cathie and Tim came over and we all enjoyed bacon and tomato sandwiches – with tomatoes fresh out of Barbie and Steve’s garden. They were WONDERFUL. The difference between home grown and store bought is absolutely amazing. And that is true of the other vegetables as well. Next time she comes she will bring cantaloupes out of their garden. Looking forward to that.

My two girls have been blessings to me all their lives. They were always willing to pitch in when I needed them, even when they were small. I have a picture of them washing dishes for the first time and remember how they thought it was great fun. It did not take them long to get over that, though.

As I look back over the years I have seen them grow up from little girls to young women,to college graduates, and now as mature women who are making a difference in their communities and I am so proud of them. The nice thing is that although they are both my daughters and have a lot of my attributes, they are also both individuals and can enjoy being different from me or from each other. At the same time there is closeness in our family that is truly wonderful and we all know that we can count on the others when we need them. That is truly a blessing from the Lord.

I can truly praise and thank the Lord for giving me not only two such wonderful daughters, but also two fantastic sons-in-law, a loving granddaughter and grandson-in-law, and a super grandson who all love me. What greater gift could I ever have than that?

Of course the very greatest gift of all is knowing Jesus as my personal Saviour – and knowing that He is that to every member of my family, too. No matter what is going on in my life I know that He is always there with me, loving me, guiding me, taking care of me, and blessing me. What a joy and a comfort to know this and realize His closeness every day.

I pray that every single person that reads this blog will come to know this wonderful Saviour and walk daily with Him. You will never regret it.

God bless each and every one of you.

IT'S BEEN A WHILE

2008-08-26T13:09:00.000-07:00

Know it has been a while, but there has been nothing to report. But I went to the Doctor and she checked me over. My blood pressure, etc. were all very good, and then she checked my lungs. She was in back of me and I could not see her face, but my daughters were with me and they could. They said her eyes got bigger and she had such a look of surprise on her face and then she said, "Your lungs sound great!" We think she expected some signs of deterioration in my system and that is why she was so surprised. Of course we weren't, because I am doing great (except for my knees and back) and am starting to do more things like I was doing before all this hit me last March. It has been a rough five months, but I know what God told me "that I do not have cancer" and I am standing on His Word. And I am very grateful that you are all standing with me in this.

Even though I do not know how - or when - the proof of this third miracle will come, I know that it will, because of the prayers and love of my family and friends.. You will never know how much that means to me, because even though I am doing pretty well physically, the real battle is in the mind and knowing that you are all there for me makes so much difference.

Because the Doctor wrote "dong very well" on her report, I do not have to go back again for six weeks.

Other reasons I have not written sooner are:

1. Celebrated my 75th birthday (imagine being ¾ of a century old) and it was a wonderful time because ALL my family were able to be here. My daughters, Cathie and Barbie; their husbands, Tim and Steve; my grandchildren, Angela and her husband, Zach, and Ben helped me celebrate. Took pictures, received nice gifts, and enjoyed having them all with me.

The picture at the top is all my family. Standing behind me are, from l-r Angela, Steve, Barbie, Cathie and Tim. Kneeling in front of me are Zach and Ben.

2. The second reason was that I could not find where I wrote down my password so could not get
in to post a new one. But I finally remembered it and here I am.

Also, during this past month, Barbie and Steve celebrated their 29th wedding anniversary on August 18th, Angela had her 26th birthday on the 24th, and Ben his 24th birthday on the 15th. I am sure that Barbie and Steve never dreamed that both their children would be born in August when they set their wedding date. Ha! Although I was not able to be with any of them on their special days, did get to talk to them and that was nice. Think it is very interesting that my daughters are lacking 8 days of being two years apart – Steve and his sister, Deborah, are lacking 10 days of being two years apart – and their children, Angela and Ben, are lacking 9 days of being two years apart. Don’t know what the significance of that is, but do think it is interesting, don’t you?

DON’T TAKE LIFE - OR HEALTH - FOR GRANTED

2008-07-05T19:02:00.000-07:00

DON’T TAKE LIFE - OR HEALTH - FOR GRANTED

It has been a while since I have written, but during these last few months I have gone through some things that I never expected to happen to me. Guess that is because for the first 74 years of my life I have been fairly healthy. The only problem I was having was with my back and arthritis in my knee. Then I caught some kind of bug last March that I could not shake off. This lead to a cough and shortness of breath. So I finally went to the Doctor on May 9th, thinking I would get a couple of prescriptions and come home, but they found fluid in my lungs and sent me straight to the emergency room. They did all sorts of tests and the Doctor there finally told me I was a “diagnostic dilemma” because they could not locate the source. So I was admitted and for the next six days they poked and prodded and tested and drew enough blood to float a ship.

Now let me share a couple of miracles. First, one of the ultrasounds showed that I had an aneurysm about 5.6 centimeters long in my aorta and they told me I would have to have surgery. Well, then they did a cat scan and it showed absolutely nothing. Now there will be some who would say that they just made a mistake on the ultrasound – but we know It was the Lord. Then they thought I had a blood clot in my lung – but they did more testing and could not find any signs of a clot anywhere in my body. TO GOD BE THE GLORY! Finally, although they could never come up with a source for the fluid in my lungs and abdomen, they came and told me that some of the cells they had tested showed they were cancerous and malignant, so they called in a specialist and she scheduled more tests – but I could do them out of the hospital. So they released me to come home. I still had fluid and they got me an oxygen tank just in case. Because I had no other pain or symptoms was why it is so intriguing to the doctors because through all the tests they performed they found that my heart is good, my kidneys are good, etc. They just could not discover the source of the fluid.

Well, took the tests and the first one showed everything was okay, and we were all believing that the results of the PET scan would show no cancer cells, but when we went to the doctor, that was not the case. She did say there were no masses anywhere, but that the cells were the worst of all cancers (adenocarcenoma – a rare kind) and that there was nothing that could be done. Chemo or radiation would not help and basically she gave me a prognosis of three to twelve months. Needless to say, that was a shock to all of us - BUT - she is a doctor that deals with this all the time and this is what it looks like to her in the natural.

But PRAISE THE LORD, we are not in the natural, but in the SUPERNATURAL, and we are still standing and believing for a third miracle, even though it did not come as we expected. So many times in the poems the Lord has given me He reminds us “not to look at circumstances, or to go by what we see or feel or hear,” so we refuse to look at the circumstances.

It took a while before I had any news and during this time I spent a week and a half at my daughter’s home. It is out in the country and I so enjoyed not only the peace and quiet, but the beautiful trees the deer, the birds and butterflies, and more, all of God’s beautiful creations. Barbie and Steve treated me like a queen. They waited on me and made sure I could get around okay. Steve cooked deer steak for me twice and it was wonderful, plus a lot of other good stuff.

It has been a tough three months and I am glad the worst is over. On Tuesday, the 24th of May, they drained 5 liters of fluid out of my abdomen. Had weighed in the morning and then when I got home and I had lost 12 pounds. That’s a lot of fluid, and yes, it was filled with cancerous cells BUT we believe that it took ALL of them out of my body.

On the day Barbie came to get me, I received a phone call from a very dear friend who walks close to the Lord and she told me that God told her to call me and tell me that “I DID NOT HAVE CANCER AND THAT I HAD AUTHORITY.” He also said that, “FOR HIS PEOPLE THAT WALK IN AUTHORITY, NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST THEM COULD PROSPER”. How about that for a good Word, and it was just the confirmation I needed. I don’t know how God is going to work it so that I have proof of my healing (I have the medical records for my first two miracles), but know He will work it out.

Anyway, when we went to the doctor on the 25th, she told us that there were cancer cells in the fluid (which we already knew) and so her prognosis did not change at all. Of course, like I said before, she is a doctor and she calls it as she sees it – in the natural. So once again I had to deal with my flesh, but again, Praise The Lord, know He is pulling me through and I am just taking one day at a time. My biggest problem right now is trying to get my strength back, but I will, in Jesus’ Name.

Do want to share about a couple of good reports. First of all, we had been praying for a new car for my friend, Fran, and she won one in the St. Jude Dream House Contest. That is exciting enough, but wait until you read this next one. Another dear friend has a Goddaughter who had not yet started her period by 17, so they checked her and found that she had been born without a uterus or ovaries. Well, my friend prayed with her and for her and six month later she started having periods and they checked and she had a uterus. Last week they checked her again and not only does she have the uterus, but also two ovaries – all perfect. Isn’t that a wonderful, creative miracle by our God? Even the doctors said it had to be a miracle. So if He can do that, I know He will take care of me – and all of you, too.

Know this is long, but would like to share one more thing. My son-in-law asked me if I minded if he told his family and of course I said he could. A few days after that he received an e-mail from his sister who told him that she had read the e-mail to the family, and that night, when she was saying prayers with her grandchildren, she asked them if there was anyone else they needed to pray for, and the little grandson, 4 years old, said, “what about that other Grandma who is sick?” Isn’t that precious? At least I think it was and wanted to share it because we know how close children are to Him.
One thing I have learned through all this, and my family, too, is that none of us know when or how the Lord is going to call us home and we should all be prepared. I have a will but had not written out what I wanted as to services, etc. Now I am planning to do this so my family will know what I want and how I want things handled.

I do not know when He is going to take me home. It might be three months – three years – or even tomorrow. My prayer is that everyone who reads this will give serious thought to life, health, and the future, and especially to be prepared spiritually. Jesus is the only way – so I pray you all know Him and have taken Him for your personal Saviour.

RAINY DAYS

2008-03-29T09:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and today have been sort of on and off type of rainy days, and as I was sitting here thinking about the rain, I was reminded of a story about windshield wipers that I would like to share.

WINDSHIELD WIPERS
One rainy afternoon a man was driving along one of the main streets in town, taking those extra precautions necessary when the roads are wet and slick. Suddenly, his daughter spoke up from her relaxed position in her seat. "Dad, I'm thinking of something."
This announcement usually meant she had been pondering some fact for a while, and was now ready to expound all that her six-year-old mind had discovered. He was eager to hear.
"What are you thinking?" he asked.
"The rain", she began, "is like sin, and the windshield wipers are like God wiping our sins away."
After the chill bumps raced up his arms he was able to respond. "That's really good." Then his curiosity broke in. How far would this little girl take this revelation? So he asked... "Do you notice how the rain keeps on coming? What does that tell you?"
She didn't hesitate one moment with her answer: "We keep on sinning, and God just keeps on forgiving us."

And isn’t this the truth! What an awesome God we have that is ever ready to forgive us when we go to him and confess our wrongdoings! It is so nice to know that His grace and mercy are from everlasting to everlasting and that He loves us unconditionally.

The next time you are driving in the rain, I hope you will remember this little story as you turn your windshield wipers on.

Have a blessed day and remember this, too, that:
In order to see the Rainbow, you must first endure some Rain.

PETS

2008-03-27T14:36:00.000-07:00

As I am sitting here at my computer, I can look up and see a picture of Spunky, the first dog we had after we moved to Memphis. I had told my girls that we would get one when, and if, we ever had a fenced-in backyard. Well, this came about and they were quick to remind me of my promise, so the next day we went to the animal shelter. Although we saw a lot of cute dogs, there was one who just captured our hearts and so we took him home with us (after the usual procedures of adopting a pet).

We named her Spunky and she was really the most precious dog. My Mom was living with us then and she fell in love with him, too. And although she slept on Cathie's bed every night, when we are all at home she had no favorites. We would be sitting in the living room watching TV and she would go sit by Mom, then came over by me, then Cathie and then Barbie. She truly loved us all the same. She was with us for almost 13 years and we all have many, many memories we could share. Probably the two things I remember most is how she would go to the door every school day afternoon and sit up so she could look out the storm door about two or three minutes before the girls would get home from school. Then at night, right at 10 PM, (bed time for the girls), she would go into the hall, turn around and look at them as if to say, "okay, it's time you came to bed." Needless to say, she was a very smart dog and even after my Mom went blind, and we were worried about her tripping over Spunky, she was always alert and never got in Mom's way. That was about the time that she started being more partial - and that was toward Mom. It was as if she knew and understood. Of course when we lost her, it was hard on all of us but we will never forget her.

Many people say that pets are "just animals" but for us, and I am sure many of you who have pets, they are like one of the family and we love them dearly.

Because I live in an apartment, I will probably never have another pet, but at least I can enjoy the cats and dogs that my children and grandchildren have as part of their families. May they all be as blessed, and be a blessing to them, as Spunky was to me and my girls.

EASTER SUNDAY

2008-03-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

RESURRECTION DAY

On this Resurrection Day
We celebrate with joy
Because God’s Son rose from the dead
To devil to destroy

For Jesus Christ was crucified
And suffered on the cross
To guarantee eternal life
And save those who were lost

With stripes He took upon His back
And thorns pressed in His head
The spear thrust deep into His side
‘Till all His blood was shed

Yet knowing that it had to be
According to God’s will
To gain the final victory
And prophecy fulfill

For when that empty tomb was found
On that first Easter morn
It brought us a new covenant
That men might be reborn

So thank You, Heavenly Father
For all that You have done
Especially for Your Greatest Give
The life of Your Dear Son

Kay Smith Crouch

What a blessing to know that God loved us so much that He was willing to sacrifice His own Son that we might escape the punishment due us, and that Jesus would willingly take our place and die on the cross that we might know eternal life. All we can possibly need or want is in Jesus Christ. If we are restless He is our peace; if we are tempted, He is our strength; if we are unhappy, He is our joy – so that if we keep utterly depending on Him in every circumstance, life gets to e a glorious march of victory every day. Not that we’d ever get to be perfect on this earth, but in so far as we let Jesus Christ live our lives for us, victory would be the habitual thing, instead of defeat, as it is in most of us. And that kind of joyous life is what He meant us to have. It’s one thing that His death and resurrection accomplished.

You can’t even start to understand any of this unless you believe that Jesus Christ is your own personal Saviour. Except a man be born again he cannot perceive the kingdom of God. And you are born again if you believe that “God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believed on Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” You see it was this way. The whole world was sinners. “dead in trespasses and sins.” God says that means spiritual death, which is separation from God. So, in order to have life, we must be born again from the dead, not of flesh and blood this time, as we came into our earthly families, but born of God’s Spirit, by accepting the life He offers in His Word. Into that we are born into the family of God. As for the believing, it isn’t being intellectually convinced. It is an act of the will. It is saying “I will trust myself to this thing and let God prove it to me afterward. For example, if at a meal I offered you shrimp and you said you had never tasted them and I told you they were delicious, so you tasted them and found it was true. You believed what I said enough to trust me and taste. The Bible says, “O taste and see that the Lord is good. Happy is the man that trusts in Him.” You can’t be intellectually convinced till you have tasted of course, but belief is just accepting and tasting.

It is not just dying that saves you, nor is it your good works. You see, we have all sinned, and the penalty of sin is death. Whoever is willing to accept His atonement may be saved. And it’s all up to us whether we will take it or not. It isn’t anything we can do or be. It is just taking Jesus as our Saviour, believing in Him, and taking Him at His word, having faith that He will do what He says He will do.

It is my prayer this Easter Sunday that those who do not know Him, or have not yet accepted Him, will choose to receive His gift of salvation. This is something that can be done at this very moment. For the Word says in Romans 10:9-10, ‘If you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and shall believe in your heart that God hath raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.’ Just believe in your heart and speak the following aloud.
“Jesus, I believe in my heart that You are the Son of God, that You died for my sins, and that You were raised from the dead for my justification. Forgive me of all my sins and accept me into Your Kingdom. I confess You now as my Lord and I have now become the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus and I am saved.”
Now know that the Father has accepted you and He is rejoicing over your decision. The next step is to start reading the Bible and finding a church that teaches the true Word of God.

If you have chosen to do this, then welcome to the Family.

A blessed Easter to everyone.

GOOD FRIDAY

2008-03-21T11:37:00.000-07:00

GOOD FRIDAY
Today we observe the day when Jesus was beaten, reviled, and scorned, ending with His crucifixion on the cross at Calvary.
When He died He had accomplished His purpose of taking all our sins and iniquities upon Himself and paying the debt we owe so we could go free. Thus He fulfilled the words of Isaiah 53:3-9
“He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces. He was despised, and we esteemed Him not. Surely He took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all. He was oppressed and afflicted, yet He did not open His mouth; He was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so He did not open his mouth.”
Imagine His loving us all so much that He was willing to go through all this, to take upon Himself our sins and their penalty of death, and who bore them all, with their shame and their punishment, that all of us who believe in Him might be free and one day go Home to Him without spot or blemish. As you give thought to this day and what it means in the lives of Christians everywhere, please think about these things and what He has done for us.

HIS PRECIOUS BLOOD

The precious blood of Jesus
How freely it did flow
Upon that cross at Calvary
Two thousand years ago

And every drop of blood that fell
Christ gave so willingly
That every man might be redeemed
And live eternally

With stripes He took upon His back
And thorns pressed in His head
The spear thrush deep into His side
Til all His blood was shed

To heal all our diseases
And take away our sin
To overcome the enemy
As we are changed within

For when He was resurrected
He set the captives free
No more can Satan overcome
For now Christ holds the key

That we be washed as white as snow
Beneath the cleansing flood
As we come to know this Savior
Who shed His precious blood
Kay Smith Crouch

Spring

2008-03-20T15:54:00.000-07:00

Today is the first day of Spring, the 20th of March, and I would like to share twenty reasons that Spring is my favorite season of the year.

1 My daughter Cathie’s birthday – April 10th.

2 My daughter Barbie’s birthday – April 2nd.

3 My best friend Barb’s birthday – March 23rd

4 Temperatures are warmer

5 Can lower the thermostat

6 My lilac bush has green leaves on it

7 Jonquils

8 Tulips

9 Azaleas

10 Forsythia bushes

11 Blossoming fruit trees

12 Dogwood tree blooms

13 Baseball begins (I’m a diehard Chicago Cub fan)

14 Can open windows for fresh air

15 Watch seeds spring forth out of the ground

16 A time of new birth and new life

17 A sense of expectancy

18 A sense of hope

19Observe Good Friday and remember that Jesus took all our sins upon Himself and paid the debt we owe

20 Celebrate Easter and the resurrection of Jesus

Hope everyone enjoys this great season and has a blessed Easter.

Wednesday Mar 19th

2008-03-19T10:52:00.000-07:00

Every Wednesday I have a Bible Study here in my apartment and although it is small, every week brings us something different. It is not a “structured” Bible Study in that we read a Chapter and discuss it every week, or study a certain book,, but we let the Holy Spirit lead us in what He would have us do. One time it was drawing Bible Promise cards, reading the verse, and sharing what it meant to the person who drew it. From a pack of thirty cards, the promises that were randomly drawn fit together as if it had been planned. We are a small group, but are all filled with a desire to know the Word and how to use it at the right time. Another time we took a page out of a book entitled “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young, looked up the supporting Scriptures, and read three verses above and three verses below to give us a better perspective on what the Word was saying. It is important to know who the words were addressed to and what the situation was all about.
During this week before Easter, many Christians – and non-Christians - are dying eggs, preparing baskets, etc. to give to those they love on Sunday. There is nothing wrong with giving baskets filled with candy and eggs and gifts, but in the midst of all this, there are those who do not even realize, nor believe, the true meaning of Easter and why we celebrate.
My daughter and her family have a tradition of spending every Easter with her husband’s family in Eupora, MS. They will be going there again this weekend, but for the very first time their daughter and son will not be able to go. They are now young adults and have their own responsibilities which will prevent them from being there, but I know they will be their in spirit at least. As our children grow up and go their own ways, it is sometimes hard on the parents – and the grandparents, but such is life and most of us would not have it any other way.

PALM SUNDAY

2008-03-16T10:38:00.000-07:00

As Christians around the world celebrate this day, I am reminded of when Jesus rode into Jerusalem on a donkey. People spread their cloaks and palm leaves before Him and shouted,
"Hosanna to the Son of David!", "Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!", and
"Hosanna in the highest!". I cannot help but think about how He must have felt on that day, knowing that in just a few days He would be reviled and cursed by these same people. But, thank God, He knew it had to be and was willing to go through this week for the joy that was set before Him.

THE MASTER'S VOICE

2008-03-14T18:00:00.000-07:00

As I start this new venture, I am excited that I can share my views, my thoughts, and some of the poems the Lord has given me. For this first one, I would like to share "The Master's Voice" and hope it will bless everyone who reads it.

THE MASTER'S VOICE

God's voice may come in many ways
Oft times when you're in prayer
A gentle voice inside you
With loving thoughts to share

His voice comes through the Bible
In the Good News we proclaim
And through the lips of servants
Speaking in His Name

Through pastors and through teachers
Who share His Holy Word
Through prophets and exhorters
His wisdom to be heard

His voice comes through musicians
In songs they write and play
And through an artist's paintings
In the beauty they portray

Or He can speak through poetry
Which shares His grace and love
Messages of hope and joy
Sent by our Lord above

In praise and adoration
Just worship and rejoice
That you're one of the chosen
Who can hear the Master's Voice

Kay Smith Crouch

When you look around at the beauty of God's creation, know that He is always speaking to you and that He is always listening. It is wonderful to know that ANYONE can go to Him at any time.